Sunday, March 09, 2008

Face of a day...

F.A.C.E
I wakeup hoping to feel fresh air.Heart echoes seriousness and when there is peace the mind sees dead silence.The eyes open to see a dozen pairs of conjectured eyes staring at me hoping for an explanation.I clear my eyes.I slash the noises of the heart and the mind and begin to grace the night.The day has gone against me.The night called for an emprise.At the end of it all, I knew twenty-four hours in this single day defined one 'face' in life.One such day......

Fight:

Not every day ends on a satisfying note.For me,morning is darkness.The Sun still sleeps.It appears the day will be without light.I get fresh(not really.The geyser wasn't switched on!)And then I see there is light everywhere.I have already done something in the dark.
Working in a corporate Environment,with people all around me, I least expect the day to be any good.Yeah,I have a million calls to make,a project to be submitted,timesheet to be filled before a warning pops up and a hell lot.I speak to my friends over a cup of coffee."It's been a long day." I said with a sigh!The Sun sets.I feel so disconnected with the outside world.My mobile phone vibrates and I greatly hope for someone to talk to me.Family,Friends,....My best friend calls up.It just began so well.Miles apart,talk of meet,party,gifts and whatever.And out of nowhere matters go worse.I end up fighting for something so serious that makes the rest of the day dull and lost.Aaah the Sun has set.The day wasn't as bright as it was.Darkness set.The Moon smiled while I stayed holding my mobile in my hand.Lifeless.


Alienation:

I kept staring through the window.The bus travelled through roads bordered by trees.And it showered.The road had its protection from all sides.I begin to shiver.People slept.The journey looked longer than before.My house was still 30mins away.My mobilephone never beeped again.My earphones refused to work.None was beside me.


Conjecture:

Home.I was surprised to see a friend of mine waiting for me at the gate.Finally someone to talk."Oh! Sorry to keep u waiting.Got a lil late.Let's go in." I stepped in.For the next ten minutes I was on a call.Old friend.It's been quite sometime since I last spoke to her.I kept my friend waiting.I made coffee while I still spoke to my friend."You know...you have changed a lot.Girls all around you.You look pretty innocent but you are a silent killer.I thought you are decent.", he said all of a sudden. "HUH? What?This is my old friend.I'm sorry to have kept you waiting.It was an important discussion.She's in trouble and I......" "Enough.I don't think I need to take help from you now.See u." I realised how just a phone call and keeping a person waiting can let people imagine something that goes against you.The Moon was hiding behind the clouds....


Emprise:

I struggled to find sleep.Eyes felt the heaviness but sleep was elsewhere.I took my keys,locked the door and went out for a walk on the beach.It was 01:30am.To my complete surprise I met my friend just outside who had come to drop his friend opposite my house.(Why do I meet someone otuside my house!).I smiled and we just began to walk as he parked his bike.There was not a soul on the road.There were dogs all around us.None at the beach.Only the three of us.A dog followed us.It kept following.All through.Right until the gate of my house while we returned home numb with fear.(Why the hell did I plan to walk at this time?).The moon shone bright...


As i passed the next 3hours seated on a chair,staring at the ceiling and the fan running in full speed,I recollected the day.The day in life where I felt different emotions.Face of a single day that will be remembered.Though not for pleasant reasons....

  • Light is meaningful only in relation to darkness, and truth presupposes error. It is these mingled opposites which people our life, which make it pungent, intoxicating. We only exist in terms of this conflict, in the zone where black and white clash.

This post happens to be very abstract.But i just wanted to write.Enthusiasm drained outta me.I hope to comeup with sometime detailed in my next post.

5 comments:

ASP said...

So much wisdom!
"We only exist in terms of this conflict,in the zone where black n white clash"

Vijayturlapati said...

Nice way of expressing Subtle things

Cheers
Vijay Turlapati

sum4me said...
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sum4me said...

that was very philosophical, poetic even. but i can't help think of 3 questions:
1. how long can one allow oneself to wallow in self-pity?
2. how long can one let hurt, pain, depression, loneliness and all those things associated with it control their life?
3. how long one takes before they start thinking in the positive?

i don't know the answers to these but i keep asking them anyway hoping that the answer will come to me.

Jojo said...

Lite mama...
Even i've kept u waiting while talking to gals... ;-) how did u feel at that time??

U r right as we are disconnected with the world around us , but v should find our own ways to be with it, not if in it...

A suicide took place the day b4, in front my office, but i dunno until my dad rang me up and asked me "Is it so?" well... "i dunno". Just Chill with where u are and how u r... :)